why am i thinking of you all these while ?
why am i always thinking of the past ?
Do i have any choice to not let you go ?
Can i choose to be with you ?

i guess by now, i am convinced that i had true feelings for you.
i can hide all these feelings and act like a tough guy..
but whats the point of deceiving myself ?
i am too used to having you by my side.
i spend most of my time with you during our years together.
nothing seem to interest me now that you've gone.
you seem like the most compatible partner.
i cannot save myself from all these emotional torture.
i wish i could just lie to myself that i hate you, i dislike you, i never loved you.
but i cant.

I never expected our love to end.
needless to say, i never expected you to leave me.
in every relationship, there will be problems, obstacles and challenges.
these are inevitable.
i dont expect you to be perfect , of course , i do wanna be as perfect as can be.
but what i merely wanted , was for you to be there for me and to try again.
Dont give up on a patient when his heartbeat is still beating.
If really one day, his heart stopped pumping, continue to resuscitate him.
and if he really cannot revive, then " pronounce " him dead.